Me Myself and Ishika Raja

What better way to spend your day off than with the most important person in your life.......Yourself. Doing the things you can’t do when you are so busy entertaining the world and it’s mother, day job, house hold chores etc, etc! What a great escape when you wake up with a smile on your face, a plan in your head and no one to answer to but yourself...Perfection.
Following a traumatic and emotionally turbulent period, life seems to be settling down and returning to normal, well as normal as can be expected. So on waking up in the sun trap and an ungodly hour- 6am on a day off, I decided to make the most of it. First things first, turn the mobile off! Last thing I want on my day of pure me are annoying phone calls and sms’s and bbm’s! If the family need me they know where to find me.
It is a bit like that feeling when you come home from a vacation, it’s great being away but there is no place like home either. Sit down, take a deep breath and enjoy the silence.
So my day began with a fantastic workout......in complete silence, no music no other people, just me. I gather some people will be of the opinion that I am sounding like a woman in a state of depression, and I can tell you, that can not be further from reality. They say there is a fine line between love and hate, can the same be said for the line between happiness and depression? Anyway I am totally diverging off the excitement and topic that I began this story with.
So anyway a silent gym session followed by a spot of essential holiday supply shopping and sipping a latte in the comfort of my own car! So what’s next....holiday 1 booked, holiday 2 almost booked and holiday 3 very nearly there. Happy days. As much as I am against planning too much as we don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow and to avoid disappointment, take each day as it comes; an exception may certainly be made for holidays. Turkey, Goa, Egypt, here we come, Sun Sea Sand and lots and lots of, well lots of something I am sure. That’s the other slightly worryingissue, my unhealthy relationship with one of my travel buddies. Is it wrong that I am so happy being in a relationship with someone that will never go anywhere or should I never say never. As the thoughts begin to swamp my calm mind I turn on the television only to discover a new family.... the Kardashians. Super funny, sexy I love it.....Aurevoir.

That Perfect Life

The perfect couple, the most magnificent house, private practices and 3 gorgeous children. That’s what we all want despite trying to deny it. God I hate those couples, hahaha. That was what he said and yet he could have that all with me!

When we get to a certain point in our lives, we need a little companionship, not necessarily a soul mate, but just someone to make a home with and have yummy children with so obviously you need someone on the same level as you so you can at least produce some good looking spawn!

I have reached a point where I know exactly what I want and who I want but getting them to see it too is the biggest challenge. Why is the male specie so far behind the female when it comes to matters of the heart. In life it has been the case that the women are always the followers of the male and have to work a lot harder to be successful and need to pull out all the stops in order to prove themselves equal to the males, then why oh why, emotionally are they trailing behind us.
We here it all, scared of commitment, not in the right place in my career, why can’t we just live together.
It’s crazy when we are in our 20’s we think we have all the time in the world and don’t even bat an eyelid when it comes to talking about marriage and kids as it doesn’t even come into our plans. Then we hit 30, we are middle aged and it becomes a struggle to find the one because in truth, we have had our chance at love in our 20’s and by our 30’s, mid 30’s particularly, we start scraping the bottom of the barrel. When our parents tried to encourage marriage early on we shouted and fought to keep our independence and thought we knew best, now we wish we could turn back the clock!

The secret to success, any success whether that be in a job or in a marriage or in a relationship, is compromise. With a little self belief, perseverance and compromise I believe anything is possible. If only I was this wise a few years back, I would be happily married with 2.4 children.

Why did I not say yes to “him” when he asked me. We laughed uncontrollably, we loved like there was nobody else in the world, we were perfect, so why did I say no? Does everything happen for a reason? Am I answering a question with a question? I don’t know the answer and perhaps I never will.