Lost and Found

I feel like I am losing myself in a world of complacency. To some people that sounds perfect, and I hear you say....”what’s the problem doll?” the problem is, I am not at that stage yet!! I am still figuring out what I want so I need to get myself out of that comfort zone and get back to the way I was!! I haven’t been able to write, shop or even be so self obsessed for quite some time and to be frank, I Miss just being ME!!
Is it really so easy being influenced that taking the easy route is the best plan? On reflection, of course not! It is like giving into temptation and indulging in that lovely light Victoria sponge cake! You feel great when you bite into it, but feel tres guilty once you swallow, and that continues with every bite, but you just need to finish what you started. I know I am going off on a tangent and talking in riddles but it’s the best way to describe certain aspects of my life and as is perfectly clear ( unlike my explanation) I am confused.
So as previous blogged, my dream tea shop is currently being planned, and if my partner should pull out, so be it, all the more attention on me. That is my number one priority, and having discussed it with Mr X, I feel more compelled to make it a success. Yes pilgrims , Mr X made an appearance and God have I missed him. The brief encounter was so fairy tale esq, it keeps the swoon afloat....any way I’m diversifying.
What was I saying, yes, the tea shop is priority. Having being almost sucked in by “the best friend’s” proposal of a house in the country and a dog in the hand bag, I almost lost sight of my vision but having gained a little more sense from past experience, managed to laugh the whole thing off and continue with my life because let’s be true, I was losing myself , allowing others to tell me what to do, dictate our future when I don’t see one in my crystal ball.
I love my life, why on earth would I want anyone to come in and try and take parts of it over INCLUDING my already successful business!! I lost myself, but I am back, and I am here to stay!!